I really don't know where to start. I have looked forward to this day since the day after Matt and I got married. You know how that works...once one milestone has been hit you move forward to thinking about the next. I never thought it would come so quickly though. I have so many different thoughts, anxieties, worries or concerns, just emotions in general running through my mind and heart. Tomorrow will be bittersweet in many ways. One...it will mark the end to an era. We will no longer be Matt and Erin; we will be Mom and Dad. I almost feel as though today was my last day as a kid, as the "baby". Come tomorrow morning I will forever more be responsible for another precious life...that of my own "baby". And then let's not forget two...I am in so many ways ready to meet him and in some ways get him out of this body! But in other ways, it is sad knowing I won't have that movement inside anymore or the violent kicks, punches, jabs, and flips. As painful as some of them were, I cherished everyone. I hate to see this pregnancy end. I have been so blessed to have had as great of an experience as I have had and for that all the GLORY goes to GOD! And as silly as it sounds, I feel like I could better protect him while he is inside my womb than I will be able to once he is in the real world.
On the other hand, like I said before...I get to meet my son tomorrow! All the months of wondering who he would look like, if he would have hair, etc. will be answered. And as this pregnancy journey draws to an end, the adventure and new journey of motherhood will begin. I have totally prepared as much as possible...pretty much everything I have control over is ready for his arrival. The bags are packed, his nursery is ready, the house is clean, and everything else is in place. All we are missing is him, but in less than 12 hours even that element will have come full circle!
